Dan Daiquiri

Today (10/1/19) I decided to upload all of my previous pieces of writing in one mass go, the reason I never previously uploaded them was mainly due to lack of images, so instead I have decided to use photographers pictures

Moving on from more personal kind of rants of recent I will now refresh my reason for writing this particular blog, the key reason being to of course have an outlet to vent to but to also maybe at some point catch a reader at exactly the correct point and by reading my post may help them begin to understand what is going on in their head.

My journey towards understanding my own mind and thoughts is far from over, It has merely begun and has snowballed into something bigger and better- the ability to have self-control and understand the triggers and mechanisms which previously over the past few years have been the ones which reset me back time and time again.

Now it is important to note, I am in no way magically cured or all of a sudden “happy”, I doubt the first one will ever happen and in regards to the second, I merely acknowledge happiness as more a state of mind rather than a kind of endpoint. We as human beings in the society we live in today crave the desire to be “happy”, especially in tough times not just in terms of politically or economically but within our own lives too. The constant scrolling through media, seeing how others live their lives and almost feeling that we are not good enough. The constant fear present in so many of us who are under thirty years old, the constant fear is kind of crippling because the way it recoils you further into yourself the better you can begin to understand yourself. Now that all sounds great but the true downfall of this is the more time you spend trying to figure your own head out the more difficult social interaction and simple bonding becomes. I’ve never always felt this secluded in my own mind but I’ve never felt so much more at peace with my life at this current moment in time, whereas before I constantly felt in a rush or too busy to deal with anything. I am slowly coming to reality where I need to start spending time with actual people rather than just living like I have constant threats around me, things and situations which may drag me down to another low point.”